June 5th, 2026

**Good Morning - Sunshine **

Woke up from a strange one. Heavy dreams — layered with emotion, mostly that old familiar feeling of being less than.

 

Embarrassment. Fear of failure. The kind of charged inner weather that I've historically allowed to solidify into something I mistake for truth. An open door, practically, to depression.

 

I kept waking, drifting back under, and landing right back in the same place.

 

But when consciousness finally took hold this morning, something was different. I knew — not from effort but from somewhere quieter — I knew the path. I knew what I needed to do.

 

That's not mine to claim. That's AA’s. That's US . That’s My/Our/HP, That's what the work has slowly, quietly built. Upon waking, I now have access to something I didn't used to have: I know how to reach toward and Open to; my Higher Power. I know the motion.

 

The hard part — my real work — is still the willingness. Having the conviction to actually open, and let it in.

 

But this morning, I knew, NO NOT I, but the temporal ~ The Ethereal ~ The Spiritual 

WE Knew

 

(Rephrased John 5:30 with assistance)

Left to my own devices, I am empty — I have nothing, I am nothing that matters.

But when I stop. When I listen. When I set aside what Peter wants — the fear, the agenda, the small self grasping — and turn toward something larger than myself —

then something true can move through me.

Not my will. Not my judgment. Not my achievement.

 

AMEN